When Doing Well Feels Like a Red Flag

 


Today was interview day. I spent the morning as a full-blown ball of nerves rolling around the flat, getting increasingly anxious, and questioning every life choice that led me to this moment. My interview was at 1:30pm (yes, the awkward time where lunch is a gamble), and thankfully it was via Teams. No need to wear shoes or pretend I know how to navigate office corridors.


In a moment of optimism, I stuck a few helpful notes to my screen. Key facts, values, reminders. Did I look at them? Absolutely not. They were decorative at best—like motivational bunting for my anxiety.


The interview came in three parts: a basic computer assessment (which I didn’t cry during, so that’s a win), a telephone assessment (where I tried not to sound like I was reading from a cereal box), and the actual interview with proper questions. Surprisingly… I think it went well.
Which is worrying.
Because historically, when I think I’ve flopped, I get the job. And when I think I’ve nailed it, I don’t. So now I’m in limbo, wondering if “doing well” is actually a bad omen.
Still, I gave it my best. If they choose someone with more experience, fair enough. I showed up, I tried, and I didn’t faint. That’s a solid day in my book.
I’ll keep you posted on the outcome. Fingers crossed—but not too tightly. I need them for typing.

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